RELATION !

i wish that i could start another relation to fill this empty space, but i don't know what was happening to me.
there were many chances came toward me but it seems that i got no feeling to start, too afraid to start and being hurt again, or maybe the feeling itself has gone................
it's hard to believe that i've rejected a girl who wish to be with me, it's not that she's not good enough for me but it's like i don't feel her,
well, she said that we can try to start, but for me it seems useless
well maybe i have to stop all those things and keep the loneliness in my arms, so there will be no more harm for my life

RELEASE !

i don't know what i felt for the last 10 days in my life, it feels like i'm releasing something in my life, but i don't know what was that.
or, maybe it was the pain that surrounding me for being jealous ?
well, i do let that feeling go and disappear from my life, but not to forget it and also forget her.
coz the more i try to forget her, the more i remember and there will be more pain i got in deep of my chest.
i'm not forgiving her, yet,
but someday i hope i can forgive my self for loving her and then forgive her for my own good.

HOME SWEET HOME

crowded in sight, but silence in feel, it was just too many people in this cold lonely place, it's not as usual as i know, coz this place is used to be the place for me to refresh my self, but now it feels like hell to me !
yeah, i've lost many things in this three days event, maybe it's more than i've realize, but my lost is so clear !
well hey, no body cares about that, so then do i have to care about this ?
now i really understand the meaning of

HOME SWEET HOME